Entries from July 2009

August 3, 2009 New Yorker Cover

July 31, 2009 · 8 Comments

I don’t get it. Can anyone explain the August 3, 2009 New Yorker cover picture?

It looks to me like a statue in the middle of a farmyard. There is a blue fence in the background with rustic structures behind the fence. There is a cow on the grass in front of the statue. The statue looks to me vaguely like Lenin, but I could be wrong.

Any guesses? I don’t subscribe or have a copy, otherwise perhaps the content of the articles would tip me off. I went to the New Yorker website and went through the table of contents, but still could not put it together.

Help?

Categories: American Life

Haiku #1

July 30, 2009 · 4 Comments

Suki’s post today made me want to share a haiku that I wrote during my 11-month stay in Sapporo, on the northernmost Japanese island of Hokkaido. I have not studied haiku, so I don’t know all the nuances of the genre. All I follow is the 5-7-5 syllable pattern, plus the traditional Japanese rule of alluding in some way to one of the four seasons without coming right out and naming it. If you write a haiku, leave a comment so we can come to your blog and read it. Or just put the haiku in your comment.

what curious prints

geta leave in the new snow

whose tracks could they be?

shin_hanga

Categories: Age 20 to 29 · Poetry
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Grace in Small Things – 118

July 30, 2009 · 6 Comments

  • A whole day of sunshine!!!
  • Taking my book to the park to watch the children play and to feed the pigeons. I love that purring sound they sometimes make.
  • A cup of Yogi green tea to refresh me in the afternoon.
  • Being asked by a classmate if I would be interested in tutoring. What a compliment!
  • The following passage from Callings, which I want to share:

“The writer Toni Morrison once described how the Mississippi River had been straightened out in places to make room for houses and livable acreage, and how occaionally the river will flood these places. Flood is the word they use, she said, ‘but in fact it is not flooding; it is remembering. Remembering where it used to be. All water has a perfect memory and is forever trying to get back to where it was.’ “

“People, too, have perfect memory for some things, and one of the purposes of reviewing our own histories, Morrison says, is to remind ourselves of where we were before we were ’straightened out’ and paved over. Personal recollection can help us remember what we already know, and the healing properties of memory and imagination, which of course are blood relations, can help us recapture our natural curves. History is a story, and the telling of deep stories is the doing of soul work.”

Categories: Age 40 to Now · Books · Products · Toronto · Weather
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Grace in Small Things – 117

July 29, 2009 · 1 Comment

  • I found the same sports sandals again–only this time in a store with good customer service–and bought them. Oh, happy feet!
  • Today was our day off and I spent most of it completing the six-page take-home grammar test that the rest of the class will be given in a week or so (discreetly handed to me early so it can be marked before my practicum). If I don’t get a passing mark, I have to postpone my practicum and do it again. This felt like a very productive use of my day off!
  • A nice phone chat with my mom and another one later with my sweetheart.
  • The city and the strikers have come to an agreement. As soon as it’s ratified, we may start to see some of this garbage being carted away.
  • Being in school again! It’s a wonderful respite after the rat race.

Categories: Age 40 to Now · Products · Toronto

How to Make a Linguist Laugh

July 29, 2009 · 8 Comments

Our teacher passed out the following written in International Phonetic Alphabet for us to decode. Ive done the transcribing for you. I got a kick out of it and thought you might, too:

A linguistics professor was lecturing one day about negatives and positives.

“In some languages,” she said, “two negatives form a positive, but in other languages, this is not the case. However,” she said, “in no languages do two positives makes a negative.”

A student in the back of the room then muttered under his breath, “Yeah, right.”

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Grace in Small Things – 116

July 28, 2009 · 6 Comments

  • Getting news from my former workplace that makes me really glad I’m not there anymore.
  • A classmate’s reaching out to me in my socially isolated state to ask if I want to join her and her partner for a movie or maybe drop in the Shambhala Centre to meditate.
  • Buying a veggie dog from the street vendor I pass every day and talking about which pigeon we think is the most beautiful. I like the one with the mottled silver and white head.
  • Sitting on a park bench in the late afternoon sun sharing the bun of my veggie dog with the pigeons and sparrows. Man, sparrows are FAST at snatching up crumbs compared to pigeons.
  • Finding two needed reference books at a used and overstock bookstore at a huge discount…books I was considering paying full price for just yesterday while at English Central. The checkout person told me I was lucky to get them, as ESL titles usually don’t stay on the shelves for more than one day.

Categories: Age 40 to Now · Books · Canadian Life · Toronto · Work

Grace in Small Things – 115

July 27, 2009 · 3 Comments

  • Friends who offer to help you with things, like adding RSS feed to your GIST blog. :)
  • Being 90% finished with a big assignment, even if it meant staying up a wee bit past my bedtime.
  • Knowing my little rosemary plants are in good hands, my mail is being brought in and all is well back on the home front, thanks to my sweetie.
  • Being told I have a card waiting for me from far, far away. Hee, hee! Sylvain is going to bring it to me when he visits soon.
  • Being one of the least overwhelmed of my classmates by all the terminology and tenses to memorize, thanks to Dr. Sobin and all my other linguistics profs back at UALR. Yes, I do still remember material from 25 years ago!

Categories: Age 40 to Now · Blogging · Community · Friendship & Friends

Grace in Small Things – 114

July 26, 2009 · 4 Comments

  • Receiving so many warm smiles, nods and words of appreciation simply for showing up yesterday.
  • Cooperative rain clouds. Perhaps the love energy emanating from the park kept them at bay.
  • That Human Being is back in communication with us. What a relief!
  • A mug of green tea on a cool, rainy day.
  • Being able to lie down and nap anytime I want to. It’s a luxury and I don’t take it for granted!

Categories: Age 40 to Now · Toronto · Weather
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Iran, the World is Watching

July 25, 2009 · 4 Comments

I got to Queen’s Park early and chatted with a young man who had been up all night working on the preparations. There was a stage to put together, barriers to erect around the stage area, speakers to hook up and test, signs to distribute to those who wanted to carry one, a petition to circulate.  He gazed skyward and looked worried.

“It won’t rain,” I told him.  ”I’m an optimist,” I added,… “I didn’t bring my umbrella.”

Under one tree the cyclists were sipping from their water bottles, readying for their bike trip to Ottawa to deliver a petition. Can you imagine cycling from Toronto to Ottawa? I am humbled by them and by the hunger strikers.

The speakers were inspirational, especially young Jian Ghomeshi, who reminded us that we were not gathered with the idea of imposing any change on Iran from without. The Iranian people can handle it, he said. We are here to let them know we stand united with them and will not abandon them.

At the end of the speeches, the PA system switched over to a recording of O, Canada.  Why are they playing the Canadian national anthem, I wondered silently. I was a few lines into singing it proudly when I realized why it was being played and what would be coming next. My mind went back in time to the fall of 2006 when Mr. Sadr taught me and a classroom of eight to twelve-year-olds not the official national anthem of the Islamic Republic, but what is considered the de facto anthem, the people’s anthem, “Ey Iran.”

OMG, I thought. We had rehearsed and rehearsed it for the Nourooz program. I had sung it from memory on stage with my classmates, their parents and grandparents watching proudly from the audience, my ultra white self sticking up two heads taller than my dark-eyed classmates.  I KNOW THE WORDS, I still know the words.

It is a beautiful song about ones love for a homeland rich in art and culture.  ”Eyyyyyy, doshman az to sang-e khârei man âhanam,…” we sang together.

As we assembled in the street, preparing to march a pre-planned parade route through part of the city, I noticed something in the sky. A plane was circling overhead trailing a banner with red lettering: HUMAN RIGHTS FOR IRAN.  We looked at each other and pointed at the plane, in awe of how much energy and planning had gone into this event.

The rally and march through the city were utterly peaceful. I had looked at the organizers’ tool kit on the internet last night and knew the plan to handle any loud rogue factions in the crowd who might endorse violence. It worked well. We drowned them out by chanting “peace, peace, peace,” then let the speakers continue.

A memorable part of the march was when the chant leader with the bullhorn in the back of the pickup that led us slowly through the streets said something in Farsi and the crowd of hundreds all fell completely silent and raised their hands in the sign V– in support of those who have lost their lives in the protests in Iran.  The total silence continued for a city block, drawing even more attention from onlookers than the chanting had.

Two of our police escorts on their bicycles raised their hands in the same V salute.

People all around the world today are standing in solidarity with you, the people of Iran. Joan Baez has donned a green shawl to sing We Shall Overcome partly in Farsi. HB brought to my attention the words of Noam Chomsky spoken today from the hunger strike in New York City.

The rally had begun at 11:00 and ended right on schedule back at Queen’s Park at 2:00. As I left the park, someone asked if she could take a picture of me with my IRAN: The World is Watching sign. I stopped so she could focus her camera, obliging when she asked me to move my green-braceleted wrist into the shot.

I walked away feeling hopeful, my purse full of flyers pointing to petitions to signpeople to contact to pressure for the release of Iranian Canadian journalist Maziar Bahari.

I looked skyward as I felt a few raindrops, then looked at my watch.  As if on cue, the rain began at 2:05.  When I was safe inside my dorm room, the bottom dropped out and Toronto got one of the most severe summer storms of the year, with flash flooding reported in some parts of the city.

Categories: Age 40 to Now · Canadian Life · Farsi · No Coincidences · Persia and Things Persian · Pronoia · Toronto
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Grace in Small Things – 113

July 24, 2009 · 3 Comments

  • How lovingly Elspeth took care of the labyrinth, picking up all the cigarette butts and other trash from its surface.
  • A bowl of candy on each round table Wednesday, a congratulatory gift from our teacher for making it to the halfway point of part I.
  • Finding a source of very cheap vegan eats just across from the school…for days when I forget to bring my lunch.
  • Having lunch there with three classmates, getting to know them better.
  • That my teacher is erudite without being pedantic, a scintillating conversationalist. What a delight it is to converse with her.

Categories: Age 40 to Now · Pronoia · Toronto

Global Solidarity with the People of Iran – July 25

July 24, 2009 · 5 Comments

From a news release today from United for Iran:

“On July 25th in more than 80 cities worldwide, Nobel Laureates Archbishop Desmond Tutu, Shirin Ebadi, Jody Williams, Betty Williams, Mairead Maguire, Adolfo Perez Esquivel, Rigoberta Menchu Tum, Wangari Maathal, Lord David Trimble, Kim Dae-jung, joined by Dolores Huerta, Sean Penn, Dariush, Simin Behbahani, Ismael Khoie, 43 Arab Human Rights Organizations, Amnesty International, Human Rights Watch, FIDH, International Campaign for Human Rights in Iran, Nobel Women’s Initiative, Peacejam, Reporters without Borders and hundreds of thousands of citizens around the globe will stand in solidarity with the Iranian people’s human and civil rights.

‘The people of Iran have shown their desire for freedom, democracy and equality. No one needs to be told that injustice and oppression are wrong. We know that those who strive for freedom are on the winning side. You in Iran who want democracy and accountable government are on the winning side and we support you.” –Archbishop Desmond Tutu, Nobel Peace Laureate, 1984′ “

This is a crucial point in history for the people of Iran. I feel helpless here, halfway across the globe, with so few ways to help. I can’t shield my brothers and sisters from the batons of the police when they gather to request an enquiry into suspicious election results. I cannot stop the bullets.  But I can go to Queen’s Park tomorrow with a green ribbon on my wrist and march peacefully with hundreds of others.

That much I can do.

I can join others all around the world in sending this message both to the leaders of the Islamic Republic of Iran and to the people who yearn to be free from oppression, who crave democracy and social justice: we are watching and we do care.

I hope our standing in solidarity with you girds your spirits and gives you hope. I hope news gets through the filters and you come to know that you are not alone in this.

For a list of participating cities, go here. Click on your continent then your city to see meeting time and place.

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I leave you with a poem of disputed origin and wording which has stuck with me ever since I saw it on a Che Guevara black light poster at the local carnival when I was a teenager. The person with me, ironically a Cuban refugee, had to explain to me who Che Guevara was.

First They Came…

When they came for the communists,
I remained silent;
I was not a communist.

Then they locked up the social democrats,
I remained silent;
I was not a social democrat.

Then they came for the trade unionists,
I did not protest;
I was not a trade unionist.

Then they came for the Jews,
I did not speak out;
I was not a Jew.

When they came for me,
there was no one left

to speak out for me.

Categories: Friendship & Friends · Persia and Things Persian · Pronoia · Toronto
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Grace in Small Things – 112

July 24, 2009 · 3 Comments

  • Getting so many nice birthday wishes from you and from old friends back in Arkansas, from my mom, from an aunt and from friends in Waterloo. I feel so connected!
  • Making new friends among my classmates, feeling so comfortable with them that I look forward to seeing their faces each morning and asking how they are.
  • Squirrels. They NEVER fail to lift my spirts. If I’m down, they bring me up; if I’m already in a good mood, they make me smile even more.
  • The urban wildlife lovers. I see them coming to their stations once a day with grain for the pigeons and peanuts for the squirrels.
  • My magic decoder ring. That’s what I call the big plastic ring my friend Amy gave me years ago. It is painted on the inside: a purple flower with an orange centre against a red background. I get lots of comments on it, and it makes kids’ eyes light up.

Categories: Whimsy

Trying Too Hard

July 23, 2009 · 8 Comments

I did not have much fun on my birthday, but I think it’s because I was trying too hard.

When I woke, I saw the top of the CN Tower shrouded in white clouds. That was fine. I am not one to base my mood on whether it rains or shines. When it is cool and foggy, I can study or curl up with a book. When it’s sunny, I take a walk or study in the park.

My mistake was not following what I really wanted to do. I felt almost obligated to do something “big” with my day off from classes. (We don’t meet on Wednesdays and I did not have an observation scheduled.)

The morning was fine. I grabbed a complimentary newspaper from the dorm lobby and took myself up to Aroma Espresso Bar for a long and leisurely cup of hot chocolate. And yes, that is exactly what my hot chocolate looked like. YUM!

I came back to the dorm to check email and a few blogs. My tummy wasn’t feeling very good and it was cloudy, but I decided to try to go spend some of the birthday money my mom sent me.  All in all, it was one of those afternoons where nothing really goes right. I spent a LOT of time walking, walking, walking in sandals not made for walking. My feet hurt. I got lost, took wrong buses, couldn’t find a place to pee, was approached by way too many panhandlers, and all the vintage clothing stores I hit were pathetic.  SIGH.

I did finally find some adorable clothes, but of course the prices were way, WAY beyond what I will pay for a garment in this lifetime. I am cursed by rich taste. Example: a dress in the style of a 1940s wash frock with cartoonish pictures of sushi all over it. Big pockets. Mis-matched buttons. I don’t blame them for wanting $150 for it!

Oh, I spotted some great sport sandals in the window of an outdoor supply store, but the place was so messy and customer service so abysmal that I left without the Keens that my feet were crying out for with every extra block I walked.

I finally found a washroom that wasn’t locked or cordoned off by ropes saying “FOR CUSTOMERS ONLY” (okay, slight exaggeration) in Chapters. When I slipped my big Thai bag off over my head to hang it on the hook, my glasses went flying and landed in the toilet.

Yes, that’s just the kind of day it had decided to be.

I will spare you the descriptions of the next five things that went hilariously wrong and instead tell you that I had a wonderful time with Elspeth after class on Tuesday. You can read her version of it here.

The labyrinth encounter was powerful beyond words. I say “encounter” instead of walk because the labyrinth began having a strong pulling effect on me before I approached it, before we had even made up our minds between walking it in the rain or coming back on a drier day.  Just in reading the plaque that explained what a labyrinth is, I started crying. I don’t know why! I was just moved by the mystical enormity of this ancient, pre-christian ritual. It felt to me as if every hand that ever contributed to the planning and building of one of these labyrinths was calling to me. I decided not to walk the labyrinth that day, turned to walk away and it was as if the labyrinth called to me, “Where do you think you’re going?” I had no choice. The labyrinth wanted to be walked.

Today is rainy and foggy; can’t see the CN Tower at all. I’m looking forward to getting to class early, making my ritual cup of hot chocolate and settling in to watch two classmates do their simulations.

Categories: Mysticism · Spirituality · Tao
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yeah, what HE said

July 22, 2009 · 5 Comments

Today in my wanderings I came across this amazing essay blown up many times its original size (from an email) and plastered onto the front window of an establishment.  I HAVE to share it with you. Here is the beginning of it, with a link at the end if you wish to continue reading.

Commencement Address by Paul Hawken to the Class of 2009, University of Portland, May 3, 2009

When I was invited to give this speech, I was asked if I could give a simple short talk that was “direct, naked, taut, honest, passionate, lean, shivering, startling, and graceful.” Boy, no pressure there.

But let’s begin with the startling part. Hey, Class of 2009: you are going to have to figure out what it means to be a human being on earth at a time when every living system is declining, and the rate of decline is accelerating. Kind of a mind-boggling situation… but not one peer-reviewed paper published in the last thirty years can refute that statement. Basically, the earth needs a new operating system, you are the programmers, and we need it within a few decades.

This planet came with a set of operating instructions, but we seem to have misplaced them. Important rules like don’t poison the water, soil, or air, and don’t let the earth get overcrowded, and don’t touch the thermostat have been broken. Buckminster Fuller said that spaceship earth was so ingeniously designed that no one has a clue that we are on one, flying through the universe at a million miles per hour, with no need for seatbelts, lots of room in coach, and really good food, but all that is changing.

There is invisible writing on the back of the diploma you will receive, and in case you didn’t bring lemon juice to decode it, I can tell you what it says: YOU ARE BRILLIANT, AND THE EARTH IS HIRING. The earth couldn’t afford to send any recruiters or limos to your school. It sent you rain, sunsets, ripe cherries, night blooming jasmine, and that unbelievably cute person you are dating. Take the hint. And here’s the deal: Forget that this task of planet-saving is not possible in the time required. Don’t be put off by people who know what is not possible. Do what needs to be done, and check to see if it was impossible only after you are done.

When asked if I am pessimistic or optimistic about the future, my answer is always the same: If you look at the science about what is happening on earth and aren’t pessimistic, you don’t understand data. But if you meet the people who are working to restore this earth and the lives of the poor, and you aren’t optimistic, you haven’t got a pulse. What I see everywhere in the world are ordinary people willing to confront despair, power, and incalculable odds in order to restore some semblance of grace, justice, and beauty to this world. The poet Adrienne Rich wrote, “So much has been destroyed I have cast my lot with those who, age after age, perversely, with no extraordinary power, reconstitute the world.” There could be no better description. Humanity is coalescing. It is reconstituting the world, and the action is taking place in schoolrooms, farms, jungles, villages, campuses, companies, refuge camps, deserts, fisheries, and slums.

(see entire text here)

Categories: Fauna · Flora · Green Living · Pronoia · Slow Movement · Spirituality · Tao

My Passion is Visible

July 21, 2009 · 13 Comments

I felt like I had my own little cheering section coming along with me to class this morning… all of YOU!

The task was to prepare a 90-minute lesson plan, but in simulating it for my classmates (who would pretend to be new Canadians with ‘high basic’ language level), I was allotted 20 minutes: 10 for the elicitation and explanation stage and 10 to start the class on any one of the three prepared practise exercises. My topic was verbal introductions.

In doing a last run-through this morning, I found that at the 10-minute mark, I still had lots I wanted to share from my elicitation and explanation part.  I was worried that if I included everything I wanted my classmates to see, I would run over and inconvenience the teacher and the class by using up more than my time. But if I continued to shave off parts, my classmates would not get to see the whole wonderful picture of the lesson I had prepared. They would get a lop-sided view, you know?

Small grace number one was finding P there sitting alone at a table when I came thirty minutes early. She looked at me with a somber face and said, as much for her own benefit as for mine, “It’s not life or death.”

I looked into her eyes, recognizing in her a sister in perfectionism. “I was so relieved when M (teacher) said yesterday that she doesn’t expect perfection,” I told her.

“ME TOO,” she confided. Then she added, “She may not, but I do. I expect perfection from myself.”

It felt good to have someone in the same boat with me, someone else who gets really worked up over these things, whether we know in our logical minds that it’s silly or not.

“It’s not life or death,” I murmured as I went off to the kitchen to make a cup of cocoa.

Two of us were scheduled for today, first E at 10:30 and then me at 11:00. It wasn’t until I was watching E do her simulation that I realized I could relax. She was forgetting all sorts of things, like telling the class what language level to pretend to be before slipping into character. But all in all she did a great job and we applauded and gave her praise where praise was due, encouragement around the strong areas that she can build on and suggestions around her weak areas that she can work on over the next weeks.

I took my props and rolled up chart paper up to the front. I had lined up the magnets on the board before class to save a few seconds. I asked my classmates to do me a favour. I asked, “when I slip out into the hall to change into my teacher hat, I’d like each of you to spend about 30 seconds changing into a new immigrant from which ever culture outside Canada you are most familiar with.”

I needed P to pretend to be newly immigrated from Israel. B would be Chinese, A would be Korean, R would be from Syria.

I dashed out and came back in with my big teacher smile and a big “GOOD MORNING, EVERYONE!”

There was no room for worrying if I was making a fool of myself. I forgot I was facing a room full of native-born Canadians. These were my level 4 new Canadians in front of me, and I had promised to teach them how to extend and accept social invitations with their Canadian neighbours, classmates and coworkers in this strange and overwhelming new culture.

I used the method our teacher and text call “elicitation,” meaning don’t give the students the information, make them give it to you.  Engage them and give them a reason to care about the topic. I remembered how animated the teacher I observed last Wednesday was. She overcame the students’ limited vocabulary by being constantly in motion, miming, gesturing, using her face, her eyes, her hands to supplement words that students might not know. So I gave myself permission to do all of those things, as well. As I had watched Kimberley do last Wednesday, I graded my language down to the students’ level without sounding patronizing.

I remembered to keep teacher talk time to a minimum, giving students lots of opportunity to practise speaking.

Then suddenly I realized… I had forgotten to look at the clock as I began. I had no idea if I was going too fast or too slow.

Ok, well, can’t step out of character now… have to keep going.

I elicited the three necessary elements for an invitation: the event, the time/place, and requesting the other’s presence. I got ideas for things you can invite others to do with you and listed them on the board as the students called them out: go to a movie, come shopping, come to my wedding, go out for dinner, have coffee…

I put the new language up using the big sheet of chart paper I had already prepared the night before. We learned the difference between semi-formal language (I would like to invite you to…) and informal or casual language used between friends (let’s go…?, do you want to…?, how about…?) and how to respond to each, matching your register to the inviter’s.

We practised saying the phrases together. “Would you like to _____?” “Thank you, I’d love to!” “Sorry, I’d love to but…”

We integrated culture:

“In your country, when someone invites you out to a restaurant, do you know who will pay?”

“In my first country,” one delightfully cooperative role-player said, “the older person pays.”

“Wonderful example! I wish it were that easy here in Canada…” and we talked about how if someone issues a casual, “let’s go for coffee,” you might want to bring your wallet along, because this is not necessarily an offer to pay.

So if you want to pay, you should make your language explicit so you don’t leave the other person guessing. “Can I take you out for…?”

We learned the terms “to treat,” “my treat,” “go dutch,” and “rain check.”

After the elicitation and explanation, I started them on the first handout, a set of four dialogues to rehearse in pairs. I stopped them after just a minute, since it was just a simulation. Per the assignment instructions, I showed the class the other two activities I had prepared to take the learners from controlled practice to semi-controlled and finally to fully communicative practice of the new language.

Then I stepped out of character and waited for the critique.

I got some good suggestions. For one, something I realized I’d done wrong the minute I did it and winced to indicate I had remembered two seconds too late, I forgot to finish giving all the instructions for the activity BEFORE passing out the handouts. Once you pass out the handout, everyone is looking at it and no longer listening to instructions. Always instruct, then distribute.

Secondly, some of my language was generation-specific. K says none of her friends use the term “go dutch.” They say, “can we have separate checks?” Good point. I conceded that my biggest challenge in devising this lesson plan had been coming up with natural sounding language. In fact, when trying to write a dialogue between two men, I realized I have no idea how men talk to one another when women are not around. (Will I have to get a TV and watch Seinfeld reruns?)  So I had written a dialogue the way I would talk to one of my friends, but when I tacked on the speaker names Chad and Mark, I realized it came out sounding like Chad was trying to pick Mark up.  So point taken, will work on building my mental colloquial Canadian English database.

The next comment made me smile: above all what shines through is my sincerity. It is clear you really want to do this, someone said.

The teacher called a 5-minute break. I took my posters down and went to the kitchen to get some water. Boy, nervousness makes your mouth dry!

There in the kitchen one after another of my classmates approached me to say, “Great job!” and “that was really good.”

My mind was such a muddle, I don’t even remember now who said what. I just know one person’s comment stayed with me the rest of the day; I held it close to my heart.

She said she could see my passion.

Categories: Perfectionism · Pronoia · Tao
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Grace in Small Things – 111

July 20, 2009 · 3 Comments

I handed a draft of my lesson plan to my teacher this morning per her offer to make suggestions in time for revamping tonight. She did make a lot of really good suggestions which–although costing me hours tonight in rewriting and redesigning the plan–will simplify the actual lesson and delivery tomorrow.

Grace #1 – Hearing the words “I don’t expect perfection” come from her lips when P, A and I were standing around after class asking last minute questions. “If you were already perfect at this,” she pointed out, “I could go home and you could teach this course.”

Grace #2 – Did I mention that I REALLY like my teacher? I do.

Grace #3 – The lesson is ready, the handouts are done, the vocabulary and sample dialogues are all printed out in black magic marker on the chart paper to put up on the blackboard with magnets, and it’s only an hour past my bedtime. There is still time in the morning for one more run through.

Grace #4 – Very clear dreams lately in response to my requests for them in which my animus is getting stronger and healthier.

Grace #5 – a nice, wordless exchange with a man on the street this morning. It made me feel good all day.

Categories: Age 40 to Now · Dreams · Jungian Depth Work · Perfectionism

My First Simulation

July 18, 2009 · 6 Comments

It was lovely giving myself a night off last night, but now it’s back to work.

My first teaching simulation is coming up on Tuesday and since special concessions have been made to allow me to do my practicum early, I also have to get every assignment in early to allow time for marking before said practicum. That means I am going first and won’t have the benefit of having seen anyone else’s simulation or my classmates’ feedback of same before doing my own.

A lot of future assignments hinge on the quality of my performance Tuesday. I have to demonstrate that I am assimilating what is being taught: how to use my voice, how to use the classroom space, how to establish rapport with my students, how to engage them and get them to invest in the topic, how to explain a new grammar or socio-linguistic point, how to present the new language pattern(s) using the board, props and handouts, how to guide the students from controlled practice to semi-controlled to a communicative activity that forces them to use the new structure.

I also have to prepare a typed lesson plan that includes the aim of the lesson, how many minutes (approximately) the lesson covers and how that time is broken up among the various stages of the lesson, along with a detailed description of each activity with actual handouts.

So if I disappear for a few days, you’ll know why.

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Grace in Small Things – 110

July 17, 2009 · 3 Comments

  • Friday! Even though I LOVE the course, my classmates, the teacher and all the awesome learning and stretching and challenge and electric, joyful scariness…well, my brain could use a rest.
  • Getting a bit more adventuresome with the subway system, I took myself to the movies! I came out of Departures with a big wet spot on my sweatshirt.
  • A summer rain shower.
  • A lovely young violinist on the street corner playing Bach for coins. Elspeth is right; there is a certain magic here.
  • How friendly some people are here. I had not expected that in such a huge city, but many people are just chatty and warm as can be.

Categories: Canadian Life · Movies · Music · Toronto

Queen of All Things

July 16, 2009 · 10 Comments

Thank you, Annie, for this award. It could not have come at a better time, as I was having one of those “what have I gotten myself into” moments. And then I got a birthday card that says YOU ROCK! on the front and this award! This is exactly the therapy I needed today. So here goes…humility completely out the window, I am to tell you seven awesome things about me!

  1. When I taught Japanese language and culture to a class of sixth graders, I taught them to fold origami cranes and frogs that really jump. They fell so in love with this craft that they kept asking me for more origami paper and more. Pretty soon my entire stash that I’d brought back from Japan was gone, so I went went out and bought more and supplied them with origami paper for the rest of the school year.
  2. I bake a mean PEE-can pie.
  3. I am a super patient teacher. It doesn’t matter how many times a coworker or friend asks me to show them how to do the same thing again and again, I will try to think of new ways to explain it, mnemonic devices to remember it, and I will always make sure the person knows that I REALLY, TRULY don’t mind doing so.
  4. At the centre of my life and my reason for living is to make a difference on this planet. I try every day to keep in mind that my life is not mine and means nothing if I cannot be of service, cannot be a vessel for Love energy to shine through to the world.
  5. I am a good seamstress and at one time half my wardrobe was comprised of dresses I had made, including advanced patterns. (But no, I won’t hem your jeans for you. Heh heh.)
  6. I am really good with children and babies. I still get a warm feeling in my heart when I remember all the times parents have told me that I was their child’s favourite babysitter, or that they’d never seen anyone captivate their child the way I could.
  7. I love sneaky, crazy, random acts of kindness.

I wish to pass this award to: Lynn, Heather and Laura, not because they are the only amazing, queenly bloggers I know, but for a different reason of my own in each case, if they are willing to go along.

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Categories: Blogging · Cyberfun · Pronoia · Random Kindness · Whimsy

Grace in Small Things – 109

July 16, 2009 · 1 Comment

  • Just when I was having a bit of a down day, feeling a tiny bit discouraged by all there is to learn and how difficult it can be to grasp the whys and wherefores of the inner workings of my native language…much less TEACH and EXPLAIN them all to a newcomer, Annie gave me an award on her blog that turned my frown upside down.
  • And I got the sweetest birthday card ever from a friend…I don’t know whether to call her a friend or an entire cheer-leading section. The card says, “you are about to launch yourself into a flat-out unbelievable year of growth and challenge and adventure! It will be joyful and full of unexpected (good) surprises and many, many blessings….”
  • And I got an email from a dear friend who, on hearing of the recent turn of events in my life, wrote: “I think that is wonderful! I can so much more see you in that occupation. Bravo!”
  • And the man who asked me for spare change, when I told him I was sorry but I did not have any change on me, said “Bless you anyway, at least you said something.”
  • My sweetie and I worked out a problem on which we’ve been at an uncomfortable impasse for months.

Categories: Age 40 to Now · Friendship & Friends · Relationships