I have a dilemma that has followed me home from work and filled my dreams all night. Every time I half woke to turn over or get up and pee (which I have to do a lot, thanks to an abdominal cavity overcrowded by fibroids), I realized I was thinking about THE PROBLEM.
I can’t talk about it here, not yet. Maybe never. I have a coworker who strikes me as someone I cannot trust never to stab me in the back, and if she ever found my blog, …yeah. I have to be discreet about this one.
The closest I’ve come to understanding what I should do was when I visited Ivy’s blog and read this.
So that is what I’ll do today. Hold the tension. Live the question.
11 responses so far ↓
TheOtherIvy // February 16, 2008 at 5:02 pm |
In a holding pattern here, too.
;)
Rick // February 16, 2008 at 7:21 pm |
I received some information recently which was not mine to have–these things happen sometimes to IT people–and I have been very careful not to take any action which is influenced by this information. It’s all I know to do to avoid screwing things up, whether that be for me or for others involved.
At the same time, I am able to live the question, to wander all around it to see what it looks like from every angle. In that sense, I understand what you shared today, Kelly, and what the meaning of the Rilke quote is for me, this day.
andrea // February 16, 2008 at 8:05 pm |
This is good — really good — and strangely enough just what I needed to read right now, too. In fact I must copy the quote and paste it somewhere where I’ll see it regularly as a reminder. Thanks to both of you!
human being // February 16, 2008 at 11:35 pm |
I relate much to this…And the best solution is living with it… yes.
I’m living with one now! :)
Ivy’s posts are so enlightening.
annie // February 16, 2008 at 11:59 pm |
I can really understand living the question for, as you know, I’ve been doing that myself these last few weeks. Answers come and I consider them but I continue to live the question for now.
suki // February 17, 2008 at 9:25 am |
As the Buddhists say, “sit with it.” Same thing. love the Rilke quote from Ivy. Blessings to you as you face the prongs.
storyteller // February 17, 2008 at 11:09 am |
Thanks for the link to Ivy’s … the Rilke quote is just what I needed today. My thoughts are with you as you “sit” with the questions in your own situation and the writings of Don Miguel Ruiz come to mind as I type this. His 4 Agreements helped me through many a similar “uncomfortable” situation with kids and parents while I taught in the public schools.
Hugs and blessings,
Lynn // February 17, 2008 at 2:07 pm |
Oh a thorn in the garden, do not be pricked, sitting and watching…not taking it in to your heart…not meant for you, not about you, about her/him the thorn, remember that and you cannot be harmed I think. Carefully walking through the garden as bees buzz and sometimes dive and sting. Soft gossimer netting protects you from all of that. You are free. And if the bee stings the stinger can easily be removed and salve applied for healing. It’s not about you.
Olivia // February 17, 2008 at 4:16 pm |
What wisdom we have in this group—amazing! I agree with what everyone has said and have absolutely nothing to add except that my thoughts and prayers for good energy are with you, dear Kelly. Love, O
dream // February 17, 2008 at 6:36 pm |
Hi Kelly-
I wrote a lengthy comment earlier, but it didn’t take for some reason. Probably operator error. That is a big drag that you have to go through this stress. When I am in a position of having to deal with someone like this and it starts taking up space in my head, rent-free, then I question the possible motives of the person. Jealousy? Anger? Fear? Then, I feel compassion. Then, gratitude, that I don’t behave the way they do. You are one of the truly GOOD people, Kelly. Over the past year of reading your words, that has become most apparent to me. Unfortunately, we can’t control others – only our own attitudes and action. Be well, my friend.
Angela // February 18, 2008 at 10:53 am |
I have to always remember, samsara can be very sweet. Yes, the questions.